Depression and anxiety

I haven’t blogged in a long time, partly because I’ve been busy, and partly because I’ve been dealing with some mental issues. I’ve seen a doctor, I’m on medication, and things are a bit better. But I wanted to talk about something that happened today which, I think, exemplifies what I’ve been going through.

This morning I got a text message from my husband who was out with the kids. He told me that two ladies I know vaguely through mutual friends had invited me out to a concert tonight. My initial thought was “That sounds nice”. But close on its heels came the next thoughts: “Why have they invited me? They hardly know me. Do they pity me? What if I go and then can’t find them? What if I can’t think of anything to say to them? I have no mutual friend there to lean on, and no escape route if I’m not comfortable.” The more I thought about going, the more anxious I felt. The greater my anxiety, the more I thought I was being silly for feeling anxious. The sillier I felt, the more depressed I got about my own emotional reactions.

One simple invitation from very lovely people who seemingly just wanted to spend some time with me ruined my entire day, because of my mental problems. It’s ridiculous. I think I need more help.

Prince Philip Outraged At Demotion To Knight

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'I'm not riding a bloody horse.' Prince Philip has expressed dissatisfaction at his demotion to knight. ‘I’m not riding a bloody horse again.’

Prince Philip has expressed profound disappointment at his recent demotion to a knight, advising that he intends to fight the appointment. “I’m taking the matter to Fair Work Australia,” he said. “I’m a prince goddammit, not a knight. Am I seriously supposed to ride a horse again?”

The Prince has been reeling from the news at Windsor Castle surrounded by his closest bottles of gin. “I’ve worked hard all my life attending party after party after party dealing with an eye-crossingly dull wife, stupid children, horny staff and patting poor people’s babies and what is the thanks I get for it?” he asked whilst putting up a sad-face on his Facebook page. “A mad colonialist telling me I have to be his chainmail bitch.”

Australian prime minister and leading satirist Tony Abbott announced yesterday that the Prince be appointed his knight. “He’s a…

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The last year

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There’s a lot I haven’t said about the past year. Lots of things have happened to make it quite a stressful year in lots of ways. But now that it’s over, I think I can talk about it with a laugh instead of a scream!

I’ve been the president of the kindergarten committee of management for the last year. When I volunteered for the job, the description was basically “Know about everything that goes on, and sign lots of things.” What they never said anything about was the ongoing problem with a specific staff member. This staff member was on two warnings when I arrived, close to being terminated, and she continued her poor behaviour for the first half of the year. Fortunately for my stress levels, she resigned in August. Unfortunately, she continued to haunt me, wanting to come back and visit, and claiming that the way she’d been treated was bullying and illegal and all sorts of things. I stood my ground, with the support of the rest of the committee, and she’s left me alone for a while now. Phew.

They also never said anything about the tendency of people to gossip, backstab, lie, manipulate, and generally be awful. We had more than one committee member leave us under somewhat dubious circumstances. We also had parents squabbling amongst themselves and then looking to kindergarten staff to sort out their childish problems!

The up-side of all this is that I’ve been inspired to start writing a new book. It is going to be a highly fictionalised account of the year. I think I’ve got quite enough dramatic material to make it interesting!

Three weeks in Europe

London

 

Italy – Pisa, Florence, Rome

 

Edinburgh

It’s a good time to be gluten intolerant

When my father first embarked on a gluten free diet, it was difficult and expensive to maintain. As the years have gone by, though, products are becoming more and more easily available. Not just in health food stores or online, but in mainstream supermarkets and at reasonable prices. And if there is something you can’t find (like really yummy hot cross buns and crumpets), you can always get good quality gluten free flour and make it yourself. Options are expanding all the time. And today I found gluten free Weet-Bix from Sanitarium! They’re made from sorghum, and they are actually really good. I am so thrilled, because Weet-Bix is one of those things you can’t easily make, and I love it.