Bizarre mental acrobatics

In the last few weeks my head and body have been playing tricks on me. For a while, recently, I wondered if I had actually missed all the signs of labour and thought I might end up accidentally pushing this baby out while on the toilet or something.

And now I’m having trouble even remembering or grasping that I am actually pregnant. I guess because the way I feel has become normality… but I just can’t wrap my head around it right now. I have to keep reminding myself of ultrasounds and hearing Evelyn’s heartbeat and that one time I was slim.

Today is going by so very slowly. I’m bored.

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2 thoughts on “Bizarre mental acrobatics

  1. Marita says:

    I can so relate to that being worried about having the baby while on the toilet, it used to fret me towards the end of my pregnancy with Heidi.

    Annie arrived early so I missed that last month worries.

  2. Chris Cariou says:

    It will all end, hopefully with both you and Evelyn healthy and happy and alive. As a male, I can only marvel at what is. Obviously I’ve never experienced it the way you are.

    All I can say is you are strong and you are beautiful. Remember that. You have put much into this. So has Aidan, in a different way. You both are strong. You will more than survive this.

    And a few months from now, you will smile happily and say to yourself, look at what I have endured.

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